FIBROIDS (PART 2)
by Robin Leebardt and Sheila Shea
Sheila Shea asked me if I would share my reproductive health issues,
the steps leading to the discovery of my uterine fibroid tumor, and
what I'm doing now. I thank Sheila for giving me the opportunity to
write this because I realized how connected my past issues are to my
present. I hope as you read you find you aren't alone, or that you have
your own story you'd like to write. Many therapies will be mentioned.
If you wish to read more about them, please visit the websites or write
me at [email protected].
During my first semester at college in 1989, I had my first ever urinary
tract infection. I learned from the campus doctor that I should be sure
to urinate whenever I needed to and not hold it in. And that after intercourse,
a trip to the bathroom would help flush out any sort of unfriendly bacteria
from my urethrea.
spring of 1990, I had an encounter with an ovarian dermoid cyst. It
was attached by a foot to my right ovary. It made itself known to me,
apparently, by wrapping itself around my ovary. The pain was so excruciating,
I could not unwrap myself from a fetal position for nearly 3 hours.
A sonogram a few days later confirmed what the emergency room doctors
suspected when they saw me at the hospital the few nights before.
wanted to remove it. I refused. He told me that if I left the dermoid
cyst alone it might rupture and flood my reproductive system with toxins.
I still didn't feel comfortable with the idea of being sliced open so
I asked the chances of the cyst coming back if it were surgically removed.
He said that there would be a 60% chance of it returning. After that
revelation I knew my answer was a definite "no" to surgery.
I didn't want to spend 60% of my life in a hospital. I was only 19 years
I was fortunate
that my mother was training as a masseuse and had many teachers and
contacts who believed in holistic medicine and alternative methods of
healing. After talking to several of them, I began to understand that
physical maladies are the body's way of talking to us. It is our body's
way of telling us to shape up or else!
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consulted with naturopaths, massage therapists, Reiki therapists, and
going through guided visualizations. I started to:
* practice meditation/visualization exercises,
* examine my relationships with my family and friends,
* decide to get out of a bad relationship,
* change my diet, and
* supplement my daily meals with herbal formulas and extracts.
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my journey of healing from my dermoid cyst, my chiropractor, Dr. Christine
Berju, advised me to receive colon hydrotherapy sessions, a gentle way
of flushing out the colon of impacted fecal matter. She reasoned and
understood that reproductive area growths are related to intestinal
toxicity, especially in the colon. The perfect environment exists for
cells to mutate for the worse when the intestines are plugged up with
fecal matter and pathogenic bacteria and yeast. Dr. Berju asked me how
often I had bowel movements. My answer was 1 every 2 days, sometimes
1 every 3 days. She immediately informed me that a healthy intestinal
tract eliminates at least twice a day if not 3 times.
I never knew I was constipated!
the hydrotherapist that my chiropractor recommended. She charged $45
per session and all new clients signed on for at least 4 sessions done
over the course of 7 days. The hydrotherapist explained that one session
did not flush out the colon completely. Sometimes even by the fourth
session, the colon was not completely free of impacted toxic fecal build
up. However, it was a step in the right direction for optimal health.
I understood what she was saying and why my chiropractor wanted me to
do this, too. However, I did everything except the colon hydrotherapy.
One reason was the money and the other - I was scared of the procedure!
also indicated that diet has a significant impact on creating a sluggish
colon and a predisposition toward "coagulation of cells, living
and dead." She advised me to eliminate dairy products, refined
flour and sugar products, caffeine (that included chocolate), estrogen-pumped
meat, increase my intake of water (not from the tap), eat more fresh
fruits and vegetables, and exercise regularly. Eliminating milk and
almost all cereals I had grown up with and avoiding chicken and beef
was quite challenging for a 19 year old! Eliminating caffeine was a
lot easier. I found decaffeinated varieties of tea and drank caffeine
free soda. To my surprise, after I stopped eating chocolate, I no longer
craved it. I also developed an exercise regimen that made me feel great.
My new gynecologist, who knew and supported what I had decided to do,
happily told me that my last sonogram (the 4th one) showed my cyst disappeared/dissolved.
I had successfully discovered my cyst's message,
of yourself first! Love yourself and treat yourself with respect.'
I had significantly
changed my outlook on life for the better and adopted healthy habits.
I was beginning my junior year in college and felt ecstatic beyond words.
I lived the next 8 years in relatively good health.
In August 1999 I sensed an internal mass in my abdomen. I noticed it
first needing to urinate more frequently yet a miniscule amount of urine
coming out. I thought it strange that if it was a urinary tract infection,
the usual symptom of a burning sensation was not present while eliminating.
clue of internal mass in my reproductive area was a definite movement
of my internal organs during intercourse. This was an odd feeling, not
painful at all, but the sensation of something poking around under the
surface of my skin.
Finally, I decided to get a check-up to determine the cause of the sensation
I was experiencing with urination and intercourse. I knew what my doctor
would say - that my right ovary was enlarged and I was to make an appointment
for a sonogram at a local hospital. What did I do? I ignored this new
"development" hoping it would disappear. In essence, I became
an ostrich. I buried my head in the sand. Eventually, I made a sonogram
appointment at the end of October.
the findings? I had a fibroid tumor attached by a stem to the top of
my uterus. It was about the same size as my uterus. So, I had two pear-sized
objects in me where before I only had one. I felt hopeless. Why again?
I had a good life; I was happily married (still am), loved my job teaching
band at a middle school, and practiced living a healthy lifestyle with
good food and exercise (so I thought). I just didn't understand it.
Didn't I work out all my bad habits 8 years ago? I became despondent.
Apparently, my body had another message to tell me. In order to understand
why the fibroid was there, I needed to do some soul searching and life-style
came to my rescue and gave me a gift certificate for 5 shiatsu sessions
(a Japanese form of massage) to help me get started on my new healing
journey and she shared an interesting tidbit.
had her own fibroid just before she became pregnant with me. Once she
had me, the fibroid disappeared.
During April, I started to keep a close eye on my fibroid. I would lay
flat on my back in bed and gently massage my belly. I could feel the
fibroid changing size, shape and location. I discovered that it grew
and shrank depending on where I was in my menstrual cycle. When I was
menstruating or ovulating the fibroid would enlarge. All other times
it would decrease in size. I did a little research on fibroids which
told me that they thrive on estrogen. That was why it grew and shrunk
with my cycle. I started to write in a journal and sketch my fibroid's
shape and location.
hadn't changed my diet that much and exercising was sporadic. Teaching
kept me quite busy. I had received 3 shiatsu sessions by now and my
shiatsu therapist told me that I had a couple of weakened meridians
(gall bladder and liver) and I had a bundle of energy lodged in my abdomen.
By opening the meridians, energy paths of the body, she helped to rebalance
me. However, my fibroid had not changed significantly or disappeared.
I was mad
at myself and my fibroid a lot of the time. The shiatsu practitioner
reminded me that just as a child would not respond in a positive way
to anger, my body would not respond positively to rancor. She suggested
that I lay in bed at night with my hands over the fibroid to be with
it and to be curious and open to the message(s) my fibroid wanted me
to hear. I did a lot of guessing, but nothing really seem to ring as
truth. Eight years before, my ovarian cyst's message was that I needed
to pay attention to myself. I was always taking care of others and neglecting
myself. I was a human doormat. This fibroid was not delivering the same
it had to do with wanting a family?
* Maybe it was telling me that I was still quite toxic and not eating
* Maybe I had issues with not letting myself be creative, after all
that is where creation begins, right?
* Maybe I agonized too much about my past, fantasized too much about
that felt closer to home! I began to realize that I was not paying attention
to what I was doing NOW. I started to make "To Do" lists.
I left school work at school. I added yoga to my exercise regimen. I
made Tuesdays "No Television Day." My husband and I started
to cook together, play board games together and just take walks in our
neighborhood together. All these changes felt right.
I was beginning
to get in touch with all aspects of my fibroid's message; the physical,
the mental and the spiritual.
-- SUMMER VACATION AND SELF CARE
During the summer, while I was on vacation from school, I decided to
dive head long into taking care of myself. July was the month for major
life changing awareness; I wrote everyday in a journal, made a list
of books I wanted to read, a list a movies I wanted to see, and made
a conscious effort to rid my cabinets and refrigerator of chemical-filled
food and re-stock them with all natural whole foods, herbal teas, fresh
fruits and vegetables.
that my body was full of toxins was the motivating factor for pursuing
a total body cleansing. In the book The Handbook of Alternatives to
Chemical Medicine by Mildred Jackson ND and Terri Teague ND DC, I found
a seven day juice diet that was geared to eliminating cancerous and
non-cancerous growths from the body. The juice diet would cleanse my
blood and help my gastrointestinal tract as well as strengthen my lungs,
liver and kidneys. I began (again) a schedule of regular exercise and
started to consult different books on women's health. While detoxifying,
it is essential to exfoliate the largest organ of the human body, the
skin. I arranged for a full body exfoliating massage.
I was still a bit nervous about the colon hydrotherapy sessions. I knew
that my cleansing process would be complete if I flushed my colon. So
I made my first colon hydrotherapy appointment. (Right on, Robin! SS)
Before my first session with Sheila Shea LMT, I was nervous. However,
I read her web-site about colon hydrotherapy so I knew what to expect.
Since I had never done it before, I was still anxious.
session with Sheila was during the 8th day of the juice fast. I knew
the colonic would enhance the vibrant health I was enjoying just after
8 days; I no longer had rank body odor or rank breath, I had energy
to sustain me throughout the day even though I was only drinking vegetable
juices and eating raw fruits and vegetables, and I had a general overall
sense of happiness. I told Sheila about my fibroid and efforts to rid
my system of toxins. I felt that removing the physical toxins would
be an integral part of dissolving the fibroids. However, they were not
the only cause.
completely and was supportive and at the same time interested in my
observations of my fibroid. She knew several women with fibroids. Some
kept them until they disappeared (after menopause). Some had them surgically
removed like her sister-in-law. The important note in all of this is
that every woman dealt with their fibroids in the manner they thought
best and I was no different.
TO THE COLONIC SESSION
Sheila was relaxed, friendly and answered every question I asked. That
first session was at 5 pm and over the course of an hour she did about
10 in-flows and out-flows. She massaged my belly to help the water come
around to the ascending side (right) and to help the water flow out.
A viewing tube was clearly showing various amounts of fecal matter leaving
my body; sometimes there was a lot, sometimes just clear water. On my
way home I felt much relief at having had my first colonic. I did not
feel dramatically lighter but I definitely felt good.
hours later while comfortably watching a movie at home, I had the urge
to go to the bathroom. What came out of me was amazing - water. It was
all water. I thought it strange that all the water from the session
did not flow out of me. My next appointment with Sheila was in 3 days.
I'd tell her about it then.
The night before I was to see Sheila again, I'd gone out with some friends
to break my juice diet with a "healthy" Chinese dinner. Instead
of celebrating my new found energy and excitement for life, within two
hours I felt sluggish and drunk. I was not having an allergic reaction,
this much I knew. Instinctively, I knew my system was soaking up chemicals
and by-products which had been eliminated from my body not 5 days before.
The most interesting thing happened later that evening; my fibroid,
which had indeed shrunk over the course of the juice fast, grew to gargantuan
size by the time I laid down to bed.
The next day, I was thankful for my colonic. First, I told Sheila about
the water coming out of me after our first session. She speculated that
it could have been:
* muscle fatigue (no peristaltic movement) by the end of the session,
* mineral imbalances that prevented muscles from releasing, or
* pockets of impacted matter that held the water in me or
* muscle spasms or constrictions that prevented water from passing out
until they relaxed later.
told Sheila about the Chinese dinner the previous night. There were
several possibilities for the drunken feeling and the enlarged fibroid.
* Soy products had estrogenic properties. Ah! I had tofu!
* The vegetables and sauces may have had refined sugar, cornstarch,
wheat and/or monosodium glutamate (MSG): all products that the body
would have a hard time digesting.
did my fibroid feast on the tofu, but my intestines were bloated with
products nearly impossible to digest. Sheila said in retrospect, I could
have given myself an enema to relieve the bloatedness. After our colonic
session, the bloatedness went away. Ever since then, I've watched what
I eat to see if I become bloated and sluggish again.
my series with her, I saw her one more time that week, and had one session
in August, September and October. After my 4th session with Sheila in
August, I started to have one bowel movement a day. My personal view
of colon cleansing is that it is essential to have one's colon cleansed
when regular and complete bowel movements are not happening. If the
body cannot rid itself of waste, the body will re-uptake a variety of
toxins and cause all the other systems of the body to work overtime
in a polluted environment. The body wants to heal itself when we're
awake or asleep.
we to impede our body's mission with a bad diet, a bad attitude, and
AFTERMATH - THOUGHTS ON PROCESS AND HOPE
Sheila suggested that I take a look at Elaine Gottshall's book, Breaking
the Vicious Cycle which talks about the Specific Carbohydrate Diet.
I visited her website and found an incredible network of information
about diet and health. I have adopted some of her suggestions because
I feel that my intestinal tract likes a certain kind of food or flour
better than another. I still keep track of what seems to hard for me
to digest and then avoid those foods. Or I eat them in moderation knowing
the consequences and take steps to deal with the aftermath.
I have found that certain wines (alcohol) affect my fibroid. Whole wheat
is not so great for my digestion. And of course, anything with estrogenic
properties (like tofu, soy sauces, hormone pumped meats) affects me
so that I look like I am 4-months pregnant the following days.
from another great website Sheila suggested I explore. Dr. Julia Chang
focuses on the importance of having a strong liver and gall bladder
because these organs detoxify the circulatory (blood) and lymphatic
systems. Most ailments will heal with a healthy colon, liver and gall
the Body Reveals
I am still on my journey. In October, I had an opportunity to receive
a Cranio-Sacral session with a woman whose life is dedicated to helping
others discover the messages and stories locked in their bodies. These
therapists work with the rhythm of the cranio-sacral fluid in your spine
in order to help the body to heal itself of whatever ails it. I knew
that she would help me tap into the spiritual and emotional aspect of
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our session, two stories came to light The first one is connected to
my beloved dog, Bear, who my mom and I decided to euthanize in 1994.
I somehow still feel responsible for his death. Is this why my fibroid
has attached itself to my uterus? Maybe its message is about life -
giving and taking it.
story is related to a period of 4 years of my childhood when I was sexually
abused. Ambivalence about love emerged. I wanted to be loved but I didn't
want to be abused. Yet, I could not say yes to one and no to the other.
I thought the two were inseparable. This ambivalence has shown itself
in my adult life in past relationships that were abusive.
there are probably other stories and messages that I need to remember
and deal with in the very near future.
* I plan to continue eating chemical-free foods, fresh fruit, fresh
vegetables, continue with colon hydrotherapy as well as shiatsu and
* I am taking the steps to help myself lead a healthy and rewarding
* I am working on all three levels of being human: the physical, mental
* I live each day doing the things that are important to me and
* I know the fundamental law of life is change.
It really was quite dramatic the way my body changed with the fibroid's
appearance. At first I had a difficult time with my belly rounding out.
Up until the late summer/early fall of 1999, I had a flat abdomen. When
it rounded out, I couldn't stop thinking about it or looking at myself
in a mirror with disappointment. I realized that the days of sporadic
exercise and poor eating habits had to go.
to do a lot of abdominal exercises and found that yoga demanded a lot
of strength. I also learned that weak abs can be an indicator of a weak
back, so I incorporated back exercises into my workout regimen. It took
me one whole year to stop worrying about how my belly looked, about
how I looked. I see now that my body is changing and have learned to
accept it instead of fighting it.
I have just turned 30 and the events in my life, good and bad, have
helped me to become the person I am today, physically, mentally, and
spiritually. With self-reflection and meditation I am aware of the fact
that I still fall into the valleys of procrastination and self-doubt,
but with a positive mental attitude, as well as the love and encouragement
from my husband, family, and close friends, I know the peaks of joy
and self-contentment are always attainable.
who reads this, begin today with this thought: imagine yourself healthy
and vibrant, be flexible and flowing, be open to the new and changing,
flow with life easily and effortlessly. Every thought you have is creating
your future. Here's to a loving and meaningful future for all of us!
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